it has never been the case
that there was nothing, and then
there was something.

there was always something
before colonialism intervened
in the social order somewhere.

there was always something
and then something else;
a both-and, a hybrid.

narratives of crisis
obscure the both-and and
reflect a nostalgia for
a something before something else;

narratives of crisis
are the something else
reaching back
to an impossible time of not-both.

narratives of colonialism
are something else.

as a looking back
with the hybrid eyes,
gazing for the not-both
with the vision that brought about the crisis.

social order ordered by
the looking forward by looking back;
the looking back ordered by
the promise of living forward.